“But even if He doesn’t”

Ouch those words hurt. Praying for a miracle comes easy, walking away without one is the hard part. We know God is in control and is capable of fixing any of our circumstances, but why doesn’t He fix them all. Why doesn’t He swoop in to save the day in a tragedy? Why does He perform one miracle but leave the other unanswered. It would be different if I didn’t believe in miracles but I do. I know they happen through Him especially when we pray for them. He gave us His Word full of stories of those miracles. I’ve even had the pleasure of seeing them with my own eyes.

So today is a hard one. Today is walking away without a miracle. Today is how do we recover from loss. Today is the grace and mercy of Jesus that gives us strength when we don’t have any left. Today I sang “Abba” and felt like I was literally sitting in He stronghold of my Father saying ‘but why daddy’. Asking for comfort.  Today we move forward in faith and praising in pain. I guess it was fitting that most of Sunday service worship today was upbeat, dancing music. I tried really hard to dance but I didn’t get past a hip sway. I couldn’t get past the loss. I was stuck on why but because of “even if He doesn’t” we have to stand up and keep going. We have to praise and remember with joy.

He will make this tragedy into a love story. He is a miracle working God and the greatest producer of all time. He turns the worst possible scenarios into a happy ending. We may not get to see the happy ending play out today or tomorrow or in our lifetime but we will see it one day. Knowing that, I have no choice but to praise and eventually dance.