Being a Better Mom

Its a new year and I am ready for what it brings. I think. This year I have decided that to truly be a better mommy, I need to be a better me. Right before this year started I was so very blessed in attending my church's (BCF)annual Womens Retreat. This year's theme was Wellness- what perfect timing right?!
We had a guest speaker, a medical phycisian who practices integrated medicine (Dr. Yolanda Wade), who gave great incite and knowledge to the ladies on taking better care of ourselves. We also had a lady speak about forgiveness. As a woman I feel like I have no control of my emotions at times and alot of that has to do with forgiveness. It took me a while to get on board and find all the supplements recommended by my new doctor friend but I finally found most of them. There is one in particular that has changed my life (and I have only been taking it for a week).
I just have to share it- Natural Calm is a powder that you disolve in water/tea and it is used for stress, anxiety, muscle cramps, mood issues, migraines, sleep, and I am sure there are many others. After the first night of taking it I felt great. I have been sleeping amazing, and all week I have been able to get up when my alarm went off. Like the first time it went off I got up, no snooze. I have been taking Zoloft for some time for depression and I am excited to see if this all natural supplement will be able to help me with that aspect of my life also. Introducing greens into my family's diet has not been easy. Everytime I try something new I put 2 bites on my childrens (and on my husbands) plate. Sometimes its a success, sometimes its not, but everyone eats it. I don't care what anyone says, buying grocies for healthy meals is not cheap.
I am not making drastic goals, just simple changes. Take my supplements. Introduce more veggies. Take out some white foods. Make time for the gym. Drink more water. Spend time with God daily. I am also logging my meals, and making them public, through MyFitnessPal, becuase if I know other people are going to see it, maybe I won't eat all six brownies at once :/

The forgiveness side is a whole nother ball game. The guest speaker talked about Radical Forgiveness. The basic concept is this: Everything happens for spiritual growth. Therefore nothing bad happens. Therefore there is nothing to forgive. Powerful right?! Hard to do though. I'm not saying "everything happens for a reason". I am saying, something happened (not necissarily from God), God makes something come out of it (spiritual growth), somehow it will impact you for the good. In the fight of blame versus forgiveness, blame will win because blame is easier. God has a purpose for me, and its not to hold on to the past. To be angry or sad or worried.
The Bible speaks to my purpose>>>
Psalms 57:7-8 WAKE UP
Acts 20:27 DO THE WILL OF GOD
Luke 1:37 KNOW THE WORD OF GOD
3 John 1:4 WALK IN TRUTH
If I have the knowledge, then I am responsible for the choices I make. I have to be truthful with myself on these choices. If I eat that donut, I know what I am putting in my body, what bad it causes, and I am probably doing it because I want it, because I am not relying on God, not because its whats best for me, because I know the truth.

I heard a great quote from a preacher once (sorry I don't remember his name), "If you pray the word of God, then you are praying the will of God". WOW.
Future goals I am scared to do but am planning on doing in the near future:
Fasting? (oh lordy, this will be hard for a girl that loves food)
Detox? (um, on a day I don' have to work, or have anything to do)

How do I change my relationship with food? I just don't know and am totally open to suggestions. I eat when I am bored, happy, sad, angry, on my period. I have been attempting to make my social outings not revolve around food. Like meeting for a hike instead of lunch. Its so stinkin hard because you know after the hike you are going to be hungry.

So thanks guys for following me on my journey to health. Help hold me accountable. Let me know if you are making similar goals and we can do it together :)